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adeledawnI had a ffxiv rp/character blog started on tumblr and then things went kablooey with that platform. I'm contemplated some sort of fiction writing something or other and while I've written a good deal for myself *looks at all the loose papers floating around* I feel like if I post something up somewhere, I hold myself to a particular storyline better and I have a more cohesive feel for the world I'm building.
I don't know that I want to dive into posting on AO3, because while that's what the platform is for, well. There are some people I'm not sure I want to put my work in front of. And they've made it perfectly clear on other platforms that there are UNACCEPTABLE!!111!1! characters to have any sympathy for or to portray in any way other than the evilest evil to ever evil. Which just makes me tired and discouraged.
I just want to fiddle around in the lore and the world and write how they seem to me, without having someone coming in to push their glasses up their nose and "Well, actually...." me into the ground about lore or how "problematic" a certain character is.
Basically, it comes down to anxiety about being judged because of something I wrote and people not liking me without actually knowing me. Which is goofy but still difficult to deal with.
I don't know that I want to dive into posting on AO3, because while that's what the platform is for, well. There are some people I'm not sure I want to put my work in front of. And they've made it perfectly clear on other platforms that there are UNACCEPTABLE!!111!1! characters to have any sympathy for or to portray in any way other than the evilest evil to ever evil. Which just makes me tired and discouraged.
I just want to fiddle around in the lore and the world and write how they seem to me, without having someone coming in to push their glasses up their nose and "Well, actually...." me into the ground about lore or how "problematic" a certain character is.
Basically, it comes down to anxiety about being judged because of something I wrote and people not liking me without actually knowing me. Which is goofy but still difficult to deal with.
