Family Emergencies

[adeledawn]

 I've had a long month of family disasters. Everything is finally on the mend, which is nice. I'm sorry that someone was hurt. I feel worse that I don't feel as bad as I should about not going to be there. But this is a family member that has made it clear in the past that they didn't want a relationship so...idk. I've talked to them on the phone, sent them get well things but I just don't want to be somewhere I'm not wanted and where I'm just gonna end up feeling bad about myself because they are embarrassed by me. Just tired of the guilt trips for not being as present as other people feel I should be. 

People are exhausting.