Long time gone
Apr. 22nd, 2022 09:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
adeledawnI've been absent a good long while.
Life has a tendancy to take over sometimes and you can't catch your breath, much less get back to the things you wanted to do before. (Gonna be discussing very vague general medical mentions and dealing with the feelings that comes with, so if that's not your bag feel free to skip me today.)
We've been dealing with a lot of things in this house for the past couple years. Medical issues came up and have been ongoing. We've had visits to the neuro and the gastro and a couple other -ologists in there. A lot of travel. A lot of talking. A lot of research.
I'm the caretaker, the organizer, the chef, the maid, the pet wrangler, the at-home physical therapist, the personal assistant.
I'm exhausted.
And I'm grieving. I'm angry. This isn't something I'd wish on anyone and to have someone I care about dealing with battling on 3 different fronts all at once is hard to be forced to stand aside and watch. I can't do anything more than I'm doing, I know, and yet.
So I've been journaling the specifics by hand in a book and doing all the things I can do and raiding in ffxiv for my limited free time. I opened the browser today and realized I desperately needed to organize it as well. Found this tab pinned and decided to be distracted a bit here, lol.
And here we are, what a journey. Hopefully I'll bounce back here sooner next time.
Life has a tendancy to take over sometimes and you can't catch your breath, much less get back to the things you wanted to do before. (Gonna be discussing very vague general medical mentions and dealing with the feelings that comes with, so if that's not your bag feel free to skip me today.)
We've been dealing with a lot of things in this house for the past couple years. Medical issues came up and have been ongoing. We've had visits to the neuro and the gastro and a couple other -ologists in there. A lot of travel. A lot of talking. A lot of research.
I'm the caretaker, the organizer, the chef, the maid, the pet wrangler, the at-home physical therapist, the personal assistant.
I'm exhausted.
And I'm grieving. I'm angry. This isn't something I'd wish on anyone and to have someone I care about dealing with battling on 3 different fronts all at once is hard to be forced to stand aside and watch. I can't do anything more than I'm doing, I know, and yet.
So I've been journaling the specifics by hand in a book and doing all the things I can do and raiding in ffxiv for my limited free time. I opened the browser today and realized I desperately needed to organize it as well. Found this tab pinned and decided to be distracted a bit here, lol.
And here we are, what a journey. Hopefully I'll bounce back here sooner next time.
